A glorious failure

I am an architecture student who has usually alot of work to do. Architecture school is about designing, building models and exploring ideas. Well, to explore you have to build models and sketch ideas. For me I find it hard to just jump into ideas. My logical mind wants to get it right the first time I do something. I will sit for hours stareing at a blank piece of paper because I don't want to fail. Does this at all sound familar to any of your lives? I am afraid to try or I want to get it right the first time. I was reading more of "Rich Mullins an arrow pointing to heavan" and he had this to say that made me stop:

Once you come to understand that life is unbelievably brief and that we really can't do anything
that's gonna change anything, that we don't really amount to a hill of beans - then all of a sudden
you go, "so it doesn't really matter if I'm not great. And if I don't have to be great that means I can
fail. And if I can fail, that means I can try. And if I can try, that means I'm gonna have a good
time."

We have to realize we are already glorious failures in the grand sceme of things. So all this crap we try to do to redeme ourselves to God DOESN"T matter, Jesus already died. That's it, we are free! Now we know we can fail but that makes the trying even sweeter. There is so much freedom in trying now. This sounds like such a simple idea but a sorry sinner like me has the hardest time, not trying to pay God back. I have just not moved for fear of missing a step or falling, but I will trip and I will fall. That is ok. In the end I will be better for it because I will run to the father. I leave with one more great quote that relates to this idea of freedom and stuggle:

Questions bring freedom. Freedom that I don't have to be God and I don't have to pretend that I
have it all figured out. I can let God be God.
~Rob Bell (From his book "velvet Elvis" Look it up)