The Loser in Me

You ever played game with anyone, especially one that had alot of straedgy? On average, once a week I play chess with some buddies of mine at a starbucks in the area ( yes, yes I know we are geeks but atleast it doesn't cost anything). Chess of course is a mind game that can test you in more ways you can count. Anyways have you ever played a game where your saying to yourself I want to win but your the back of your mind says no your going to lose. That is something I have just become aware of. When I play a game I want to win but my mind tells me I can't I am not as good as the opinion I am facing, so I will give a good fight but he will win. After playing like 4 consistant games o chess and losing all of them first you might say you are just no good but then you realize there might be something else here. Tonight I was introducted to how much of a loser I have let inside of me. Now I am not trying to dog myself or complain just be honest. If I constantly tell myself I am going to lose then will which by definition is a loser. How did I come to this? What do I do with it?

Well first of all I have to look at the big picture because with everything there is a bigger meaning to it all. If I am telling myself I will lose at simple everyday games then what am i telling myself about how I deal with life? In a certain light life is a game in itself. So, I am going through life with a loser mindset, battling satan with the mindset that he has already won so I will give a fight but he will win. HOW MESSED UP IS THAT!!! I don't want that in my life. I don't believe Jesus came and gave a message that everyone is better than you. I believe the bible tells that He is saying we are all equal. Yes he tells us to serve our brothers and lift them up but where does it say everyone else is better than you? This is where the destruction comes in leading a life that it is all over death will come and it wins. Well this is one MAN THAT WILL SAY NO! NO I will not go quietly into that good night!

Now we come to what do i do with this knowledge about myself. Well frankly there is no formula. All I know is I need to work on changing my mindset from loser to winner. Not that I am better and will win all the time but that I have just as much of a chance as anyone else. I will not look at death and say it has a hold over me because there is more to life after death. So, how do we change our mindsets? With a very simple idea and a very difficult application. You deal with it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, and second by second. Life is about dealing with the moments as they happen, because once there over that moment is gone forever and will never return.