Random stuff that makes you stop

I was sitting in the living room of my apartment, it is also the dining room, eatting lunch and I happen to look at the calendar on the wall. I like to have a calendar cause then atleast I know what the date is plus I enjoy crossing off a day that has just ended. Anyways I am sitting there looking at the calendar and I see yesterday crossed off and I think,"you know yesterday is never going to come again." That one day has existed for what it is and it will never come again. For that moment it Carpe deim seemed to make sense to me. In this moment at this time I will exist like this and never again, Seize that!
There are those out in the world that would cheer for me saying seize the day because they feel that means do everything that is fun. I disagree with this view. The phrase is about pointing out, " do everything that best you can because this time will never come again." Excellence can have such a negative view if one uses it to do negative things. An example is I am trying to be an excellent killer, which has negative results and will end negatively. My view is excellence only works when you are using it for positive end results. Everything Christ did was ultimately for a positive result, not always his positive result but it helped someone. That calendar on the wall now is a reminder that these are the days I live what will I do with them?